3.31.2004
~*Dont settle for the one you can live with...wait for the one you can't live without!*~
Sometimes I am amazed that I have found my soul mate. This guy is so perfect for me. I love him to pieces. Girls: Take my advice. Do not search for him. Let him fall into your lap when you least expect it. And Guys, do the same. That is how we found one another. He loved another and I was trying desperatly to stay away from men before I started college. Funny how things work out so perfectly when they dont go your way. I love you James. With every ounce of my being.
~*You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back.*~
I would have lost big time if I would have held back my true feelings. I am glad I finally told you, I am glad I broke our promise :)
"Love is unselfish, understanding, & kind, for it sees with its heart & not with its mind."
It is so kind. These are the happiest days of my life. They will only continue to get better. Thank you for joining me on this important step of my life. Thank you for loving me as I love you.
*kissed* @ 1:10 AM
3.30.2004
Sorry for the sudden rash of blog posts. I was putting everything here that is on my buddyprofile for your viewing enjoyment. Yes. I rock.
Today was long. Ive had a headache all day. It must stop. MUST.
*kissed* @ 9:27 PM
What your name means:
-A-
You are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action. You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get. You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up front person. When it comes to sex, it's action that counts not obsecure hints. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important to you. You find the chase and challenge of the "hunt" invigorating. You are passionate and sexual as well as being much more adventurous than you appear; however, you do not go around advertising these qualities. Your physical needs are your primary concern.
-B-
You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced, wined, and dined. You are very happy to receive gifts as an expression of the affection of your lover. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You are private in your expression of endearments and particularly when it comes to lovemaking. You will hold off until everything meets with your approval. You can control your appetite and abstain from sex if need be. You require new sensations and experiences. You are willing to experiment.
-C-
You are a very social individual, and it is important to you to have a relationship. You require closeness and togetherness. You must be able to talk to your sex partner before, during, and after. You want the object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good looking. You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very sexual and sensual,needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot be achieved, you have the ability to go for long periods without sexual activity. You are an expert at controlling your desires and doing without.
-D-
Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full steam ahead in pursuit. You do not give up your quest easily. You are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on. You are highly sexual, passionate, loyal, and intense in your involvement, sometimes possessive and jealous. Sex to you is a pleasure to be enjoyed. You are stimulated by the eccentric and unusual, having a free and open.
-E-
Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and a companion for a bedmate. You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important than the sexual act for you, but once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. When you don't have a good lover to fall asleep with, you will fall asleep with a good book. (Sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good look.)
-F-
You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt,yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous,sexual,and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are born romantic. Dramatic lve scenes are your favorite fantasy pastime. You can be a very generous lover.
-G-
You are crap in bed!
-H-
You seek a mate who can enhance your reputation and earning ability. You will be very generous to your lover once you have attained a commitment. Your gifts are actually an investment in your partner. Before the commitment, though, you tend to be frugal in your spending and dating habits and equally cautious in your sexual involvement. You are a sensual and patient lover.
-I-
You have a great need to be loved,appreciated...Even worshipped.You enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh.You look for lovers who know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless that amateur wants a tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having your desires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new modes of sexual expression.You bore easily and thus require sexual adventure and change. You are more sensual than sexual,but you are sometimes downright lustful.
-J-
You are totally marvelous!
-K-
You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your expression of love and are willing to take chances, try new sexual experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste.Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving,cuddling, wining,and dining to know that you're being appreciated.
-L-
You are very romantic, idealistic, andsomehow you believe that to love means to suffer. You wind up serving your mate or attracting people who have unusual troubles. You see yourself as your lover's savior. You are sincere, passionate, lustful, and dreamy. You can't help falling in love. You really enjoy stimulating yourself, though you are fairly new to it. You fantasize and get turned on by movies and magazines. You do not tell others of this secret life, nor of your sexual fantasies.
-M-
You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of sexual energy is inexhaustible. You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and also enjoy mothering your mate.
-N-
You need constant stimulation because you bore quickly. You can handle more than one relationship at a time with ease. You believe in total sexual freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of sexual energy is inexhaustible.You are a flirt,yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous, sexual,and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are your favorite fantasy pastime. You can be a very generous lover.
-O-
You are very interested in sexual activities yet secretive and shy about your desires. You can re-channel much of your sexual energy into making money and/or seeking power. You can easily have extended periods of celibacy. You are a passionate, compassionate, sexual lover, requiring the same qualities from your mate. Sex is serious business; thus you demand intensity and diversity, and are willing to try anything or anyone. Sometimes your passions turn to possessiveness, which must be kept in check.
-P-
You are very conscious of social proprieties. You wouldn't think of doing anything that might harm your image or reputation. Appearances count, therefore, you require a good-looking partner.You also require an intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your partner as your enemy; A good fight stimulates those sex vibes. You are relatively free of sexual hang-ups. You are willing to experiment and try new ways of doing things. You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and need a good deal of physical gratification.
-Q-
You require constant activity and stimulation. You have tremendous physical energy. It is not easy for a partner to keep up with you, sexually or otherwise. You are an enthusiastic lover and tend to be attracted to people of other ethnic groups. You need romance, hearts and flowers, and lots of conversation to turn you on and keep you going.
-R-
You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone who can keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal the smarter the better. You are turned on more quickly by a great mind than by a great body. However, physical attractiveness is very important to you. You have to be proud of your partner. You are privately very sexy, but you do not brag, you are willing to serve as a teacher. Sex is important; you can be a very demanding playmate.
-S-
You are secretive, self-contained, and shy. You are very sexy, sensual, and passionate, but you do not let on to this.Only in intimate privacy will this part of your nature reveal itself. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the right person to come along.
-T-
You are very sensitive, private, and sexually passive; you like a partner who takes the lead. Music, soft lights and romantic thoughts turn you on. You fantasize, but do not tend to fall in and out of love easily. When in love, you are romantic, idealistic, mushy, and extremely intense. You enjoy having your senses and your feelings stimulated, titillated, and teased. You are a great flirt. You can make your relationships fit your dreams, often times all in your own head.
-U-
You are enthusiastic and idealistic when in love. When not in love, you are in love with love, always looking for someone to adore. You see romance as a challenge. You are a roamer and need adventure, excitement, and freedom. You deal in potential relationships. You enjoy giving gifts and enjoy seeing your mate looking good. Your sex drive is strong and you desire instant ratification. You are willing to put your partner's pleasures above your own.
-V-
You are individualistic, and you need freedom, space, and excitement. You wait until you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing someone means psyching him out. You feel a need to get into his head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to encentric types. Often there is an age difference between you and your lover. You respond to danger, thrills, and suspense. The gay scene turns you on, even though you yourself may not be a participant.
-W-
You are very proud, determined, and you refuse to take no for an answer when pursuing love. Your ego is at stake. You are romantic, idealistic, and often in love with love itself, not seeing your partner as he or she really is. You feel deeply and throw all of yourself into your relationships. Nothing is too good for your lover. You enjoy playing love games.
-X-
You need constant stimulation because you bore quickly. You can handle more than one relationship at a time with ease. You can't shut off your mind. You talk while you make love. You can have the greatest love affairs,all by yourself, in your own head.
-Y-
You are sexual, sensual, and very independent. If you can't have it your way, you will forgot the whole thing. You want to control your relationships, which doesn't always work out too well. You respond to physical stimulation, enjoy necking and spending hours just touching, feeling and exploring. However, if you can spend your time making money, you will give up the pleasures of the flesh for the moment. You need to prove to yourself and your partner what a great lover you are. You want feedback on your performance.
-Z-
You enjoy very much the art of making love and you're excellent at it, you know exactly where your partner's hot spots are - and trust me, they appreciate it!
*kissed* @ 9:26 PM
*Why do birds not fall out of trees when they sleep?
*Why does Bugs bunny walk around the cartoon naked, but puts a bathing suit on when he goes swimming?
*# Why is a woman in a suit a "business person” but a man in a dress is a "transvestite"?
*Was Dawson Named After The Creek or Was The Creek Named After Dawson?
*If our body temperature is normally 98.6 degrees, how come when it's 98 degrees outside, no one is comfortable?
*If scientists were ever going to figure out how to travel through time, wouldn’t we now be seeing people from the future?
*Does it really count in court when an atheist is sworn in under oath using a Bible?
*Why are there pictures of the sun wearing sunglasses when the purpose of sunglasses is to protect your eyes from the sun?
*If you are parking somewhere and the signs in front of the parked cars say "30 minutes" then when your 30 minutes are up can you park in the spot right next to you??
*Why are women and men's shoe sizes different?
*If you took a compass to outer space would it still point "magnetic north"? Is there still a north, south, east, and west in space?
*Why is it illegal to put money in other people's parking meters?
*Do you ever notice those red balls on the wires while your driving? Well what are they for?
*Why are public toilet seats never complete ovals?
*How come it was called the Cosby Show when Billy Cosby's character was named Heathcliff Huxtible?
*How come toy hippos are always blue, or purple, when real hippos are brown?
*Why is most lunchmeat bigger than the bread?
*If you were a pastor, and you were getting married, would you hire a pastor, or would you do the wedding yourself?
*Why is Joey short for Joe, when Joey has more letters?
*kissed* @ 9:26 PM
*Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.*
*Sometimes one has to experience bad things in order to realize the good things.*
*In life, there are only two things to worry about, either you are well, or you are sick. If you are well, there is nothing to worry about, but if you are sick, you have two things to worry about; either you will live, or you will die. If you live, there is nothing to worry about, if you die, you have two things to worry about; either you will go to heaven or to hell. If you go to heaven, there is nothing to worry about, but if you go to hell, you'll be so busy shaking hands with your friends, you won't have time to worry!*
*Eventually all the pieces fall into place, until then: laugh at the confusion, live for the moments, and know that everything happens for a reason*
*The grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love and something to hope for.*
*To accomplish great things, we must not only act but also dream, not only plan but also believe.*
*Life is too short for petty problems, so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly, and forgive quickly. Life is too short to be anything but happy.*
*The day you start caring what people are saying about you is the day you stop being yourself.*
*Don't let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present.*
*No matter how hard life seems have faith in your dreams. No matter how your heart is grieving don't stop believing.*
*If you get a chance take it, if it changes your life let it, live it in your dreams and dream it while you're awake.*
*Who ever said sunshine brings happiness has never gone dancing in the rain.*
*Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched their lives.*
*The strongest person you see all day may be the one who crys themself to sleep at night.*
*True friends see the hurt in your eyes when everyone else falls for your smile.*
"An entire generation of pumping gas, waiting tables...slaves of the white colars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we dont need. We're the middle children of history, man! No purpose or place. We have no great war, no great Depression. Our great war is a spiritual war. Our Great Depression is our lives. Weve all been raised on television to believe that one day wed all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars, but we wont. Were slowly learning that fact, and were very, very Pissed off!" Tyler Durden - Fight Club
“Make your own world, don’t let it make you. Take whatever you now have and with your mind and hands make it somehow better.”
Earl Nightingale
*kissed* @ 9:25 PM
THINGS THAT ARE HAPPENING RIGHT NOW WHILE YOU ARE READING THIS...
Somebody is very proud of you.
Somebody is thinking of you.
Somebody is caring about you.
Somebody misses you.
Somebody wants to talk to you.
Somebody wants to be with you.
Somebody hopes you aren't in trouble
Somebody is thankful for the support you have provided.
Somebody wants to hold your hand.
Somebody hopes everything turns out all right.
Somebody wants you to be happy.
Somebody wished you loved them.
Somebody is celebrating your successes.
Somebody wants to give you a gift.
Somebody thinks that you are a gift.
Somebody hopes you're not too cold, or too hot
Somebody wants to hug you.
Somebody admires your strength.
Somebody is thinking of you and smiling.
Somebody wants to be your shoulder to cry on.
Somebody wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun
Somebody thinks the world of you.
Somebody wants to protect you.
Somebody would do anything for you.
Somebody wants to be forgiven by you.
Somebody is grateful for your forgiveness.
Somebody wants to laugh with you.
Somebody remembers you and wishes that you were there.
Somebody is praising God for you.
Somebody needs to know that your love for them is unconditional.
Somebody values your advice.
Somebody wants to tell you how much they care.
Somebody wants to share their dreams with you.
Somebody wants to hold you in their arms.
Somebody wants you to hold them in your arms.
Somebody treasures your spirit.
Somebody wishes they could stop time because of you.
Somebody praises God for your friendship and love.
Somebody can't wait to see you.
Somebody loves you for who you are.
Somebody loves the way you make them feel.
Somebody wants to be with you (forever and ever).
Somebody wants you to know they are there for you (always).
Somebody is glad that you're their friend.
Somebody wants to be your friend.
Somebody stayed up all night thinking about you.
Somebody is alive because of you.
Somebody is wishing that you noticed them.
Somebody wants to get to know you better.
Somebody wants to be near you.
Somebody misses your advice and guidance.
Somebody has faith in you.
Somebody trusts you...A lot.
Somebody needs your support.
Somebody needs you to have faith in them.
Somebody needs you to let them be your friend.
Somebody hears a song that reminds them of you.
*kissed* @ 9:25 PM
Some Love Quotes-Dedicated to James <3
Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.
The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late.
*Fate decides who comes into your life but your heart decides who stays*
*Everyone says you only fall in love once but thats not true, everytime I hear your voice I fall in love all over again.*
*before I met you I never knew what it was like to look at someone & smile for no reason at all*
*kissed* @ 9:24 PM